I never noticed the little tests in life
Like the way certain things come back after all that strife
As if to test your determination
It teases your self-restraint
Until you finally manage to show some restraint.
I didn’t write for it to be read
In fact I had hoped it would never be read.
I wrote for my mind to feed
And that voice that keeps trying to sow seeds.
So if it doesn’t makes sense,
It’s because it was never meant to make sense
For it never had any sort of sense.
Let’s wrap this up
And call it a day.
I’ve cried enough
And I’ve done more than enough
So please, let’s just call it a day.
I didn’t do it to hurt
But that I couldn’t cure my own hurt.
It’s not out of lack
But rather my own lacking.
How egoistical must you be
To make it about you?
They want those pretty wings
The kind that sings
Break, break, break
Let’s pull out those feathers
In seas of red.
For broken wings will have to rely on you
To be fed
You should know your place
And never push too far
Because you’re replaceable
Just as they all are.
So heed this warning
And stay in your lane
I’ve never hesitated
When it came to
I looked outside to find the answers that were on the inside
And it would be the first of many mistakes that I would have to make
To finally build the me that no one could shake.
On the edge of the bed,
Her feet dangles
Swinging forwards and backwards
Her hand hanging limply. Emptily.
Everything is so empty.
Like a soulless body vomiting out words
Regurgitate, regurgitate, regurgitate
She swallows her salted wounds,
As the wings on her blades tremble.
This is her redemption.
One of the greatest pain,
Is reconciling the darkness with the light.
But to live and breathe them both
Is the choice to abandon ego
That it never determined your worth.