I never said it out loud.
That if I could,
I would bear it all for you.
In this lifetime or the hereafter,
I would give up everything for you.
Because we’ve been tied by blood,
Or do they call it fate?
But there’s something sickening about you,
That I can’t help but hate.
The sickness that lives in me too,
Was that also written in fate?
I’ve watched you over the years,
With the choices you would come to make.
And then the people around,
Who would only take.
Perhaps in some ways, you might have even had to break.
But break, my dear, break but don’t forget,
You haven’t seen the best of it yet.
And they will eventually, have to pay their debts.
I once tried to fold 1000 paper cranes for you
But the cranes remained,
As you eventually left.
So when I found the cranes
Almost a decade later,
I bursted into tears
And wondered if somewhere –
Somewhere beyond us all,
You will suddenly remember me now and again too,
Just like so?
I can’t turn back time to that morning,
As I looked down into my cup.
I can’t turn back to that moment
As I watched your leaving back
And how I wanted to call you back.
But if I had the chance,
I would have done the same
Because such is the fate,
When gone was the flame.
I am angry,
For they’ve taken more and more
And more and more,
Than they could ever give back.
So they can’t blame me for retaliating,
When all I wanted was fairness.
But they’ll spin their stories and make me the villain,
Trying to appease me with the cage they call freedom.
I’m not sure why suddenly
I’m remembering all the promises you made,
And then broke.
How many years did I torment myself
Thinking it was because I wasn’t enough for you.
Nothing was ever enough for you.
Because even you,
Wasn’t enough for you.