Twisted, convoluted and broken
We come to each other in pieces
Wanting to make a whole.
But all we ever do
Is sink into a dark hole
And wonder why we can’t fix each other, like so.
At times I think I’m selfish.
If everything were to end,
But we can stop it from happening,
If it means we would be eternally apart
I would rather let it burn down
Than for us to part.
I’ll hold you like you haven’t been held.
Gently as you sleep.
I’d like to tell you how my feelings are unparalleled,
But despite my writings, I’d rather things like that be felt
Because I’ve heard so many words in the past
To find that nothing has lasted
So I won’t take this for granted
This is just me trying to be candid.
Pain is dreaming of you
Over and over and over again.
I’m trying to wash off this stain
But it bleeds in vain.
Don’t appear in vain
I don’t want to see you ever again.
It’s a painful reminder of what I have lost
Or was it the betrayal?
I bet you’re sick with glee
And though I can’t bear to physically hurt
The darkness in me would rather see you drowning in dirt
But I guess I’ll leave it to God to do his work.
Let’s wrap this up
And call it a day.
I’ve cried enough
And I’ve done more than enough
So please, let’s just call it a day.
I didn’t do it to hurt
But that I couldn’t cure my own hurt.
It’s not out of lack
But rather my own lacking.
How egoistical must you be
To make it about you?
I hate lying
But I hate it even more
When you give me no choice
But to lie.
I’m lying to keep your truth
Whilst denying my own truth.
I once waited for an apology
But now I don’t need your sorry.
I can’t even return to the naive me
To pretend to believe your sob story.
Why don’t you save your acting,
For someone who still worries?
Sometimes I miss you so much.
I wish I had more time to hold you.
I wish I could have been there in your last moments,
Just like the first.