I made plans today
But then something went wrong.
Late at night, lying in bed
I’m unable to sleep
Still stuck in my head.
Author: buildpoetry
Entertain that thought
Don’t look at me like that
As if you’re amusing a child.
You hold my face with those cold fingertips
When I’ve carved out my heart so neatly
And laid it bare, in your palms so naively.
Why did I ever entertain that thought?
Suffering
I made a mistake
In trying to end suffering,
When living in itself is suffering.
So if I’m destined to suffer
Why not find peace
Between moments of suffering?
From me
I sought answers from the source,
Thinking I didn’t want to make mistakes.
Forgetting that I am part of the universe
And the universe is a part of me.
So wanting something, not wanting something –
These feelings are valid
For they came from me.
How could I have failed to see?
For you
I want to be home
Home in your arms.
Their faces are kind,
But their hearts are too cruel
I can’t trust anyone but you.
So I’m only staying here, waiting for you.
If
If it’s not self punishment
Then why am I doing the same thing
Over and over and over again?
Standing in the same corner
Watching the same rain
Heart in pain.
Place in this world
You taught me that softness is weakness,
That kindness is sensitive
And sensitive has no place in this world.
But if I can’t feel, then I’m not me
If I can’t be me, then what can I be
So do I have no place in this world?
Sin
I sometimes feel like something sinister
Clothed with human skin.
But the dirtiness that I feel,
I know comes from deep within.
Seeking comfort
Between the sheets of sin.
Into the light
Some days I’m a little worse for wear.
I imagine it’s like a stone that’s always been in darkness,
Suddenly breaking from the cracks inside.
So the light pierces into corners that has never seen daylight
And all the bugs, insects and worms hidden in these corners
Finally come out.
Out of darkness,
And into the light.
Like so
Twisted, convoluted and broken
We come to each other in pieces
Wanting to make a whole.
But all we ever do
Is sink into a dark hole
And wonder why we can’t fix each other, like so.
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